Restored and Renewed
JEFFEREY RONDEAU
My childhood ended when I turned 12 and my parents gave me a computer for my bedroom. This was the start of my slavery to pornography and sexual brokenness, all before puberty.
As the years went by, I used this brokenness to medicate my emotional and relational wounds. When I hurt, I ran to my addiction. When others rejected me, I retreated to the fantasies of my mind which couldn’t reject me. But these fantasies were actually phantasms. They reminded me I was living against God’s design while being the very chains that bound me.
For me, accountability wasn’t enough. When I was hurt by others, I would simply isolate and enter my fantasy world. I thought this brokenness would end at marriage, but it remained. I thought it would end after having children, but it remained. I thought it would end when I started seminary, and in some sense, it did. My seminary required I join Pure Desire to kill the sin that causes so many seemingly godly men to fall.
"I came to grips with the traumas I had received and dealt to myself..."
During my time in Conquer Series and Seven Pillars, I came to grips with the traumas I had received and dealt to myself over the years. Conquer Series helped me understand this was a very real battle of the mind with physical elements at play (such as neural plasticity). Seven Pillars took me exponentially deeper and forced me to face the wounds I ran from. I learned my wounds are not simply “bad habits,” but are unaddressed relational hurts. This radically freed me from the mystery of temptation and helped me spot the enemy long before he comes.
Through these two ministries, the Lord has brought profound healing into my life, and I have watched Him do the same for countless men and families—restoring hearts, renewing marriages, and leading people into the true freedom and reconciliation found in Christ through the work of Pure Desire.
My childhood ended when I turned 12 and my parents gave me a computer for my bedroom. This was the start of my slavery to pornography and sexual brokenness, all before puberty.
As the years went by, I used this brokenness to medicate my emotional and relational wounds. When I hurt, I ran to my addiction. When others rejected me, I retreated to the fantasies of my mind which couldn’t reject me. But these fantasies were actually phantasms. They reminded me I was living against God’s design while being the very chains that bound me.
For me, accountability wasn’t enough. When I was hurt by others, I would simply isolate and enter my fantasy world. I thought this brokenness would end at marriage, but it remained. I thought it would end after having children, but it remained. I thought it would end when I started seminary, and in some sense, it did. My seminary required I join Pure Desire to kill the sin that causes so many seemingly godly men to fall.
"I came to grips with the traumas I had received and dealt to myself..."
During my time in Conquer Series and Seven Pillars, I came to grips with the traumas I had received and dealt to myself over the years. Conquer Series helped me understand this was a very real battle of the mind with physical elements at play (such as neural plasticity). Seven Pillars took me exponentially deeper and forced me to face the wounds I ran from. I learned my wounds are not simply “bad habits,” but are unaddressed relational hurts. This radically freed me from the mystery of temptation and helped me spot the enemy long before he comes.
Through these two ministries, the Lord has brought profound healing into my life, and I have watched Him do the same for countless men and families—restoring hearts, renewing marriages, and leading people into the true freedom and reconciliation found in Christ through the work of Pure Desire.
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